Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Tiny Home & Other Updates

Sometimes you have to remember that everything happens for a reason...

Cliche, maybe. True, absolutely. 

I posted, several, several, days ago about the possibility of moving into a tiny home. I was excited and sure down to my toes that it was going to be it. 

It wasn't.

Not from lacking of trying mind you, but things fell through because of the homes 'uniqueness' and one thing led to another and we ended up not getting it. My little slice of childhood was dashed in an instant and I was angry. Actually, I was pretty livid and disappointed and quite possibly shocked that this would happen to us. So, naturally I was going to force it to work. I called around, pushed and prodded, and found someone who was willing to go the extra mile to make this work. I was going to dump good money after bad to make it happen. 

Then reality hit, a serious adult conversation was had, and my incessant need to get what I want no matter what was brought to the forefront. It wasn't meant to be and I needed to realize that before I spent too much for too little. Pun intended. This made me take a breath and regroup, making the very (and I mean very) hard decision to call the whole thing off. If it cannot happen the right way, it's not happening at all, is how I steeled myself. 

And despite that original disappointment I am so, so glad I did. 

We are now business owners and I am one step closer to becoming a full time writer. 

You read that right. My husband is exceptionally skilled in all things that can be made with your hands. He can build the world if given the opportunity. This has always been a toyed around idea, one that we talk about in our dream-like conversations, along with how we'll be in a place where money counts for nothing and I am a famous writer. However, this time, after another disappointed fall through and the sick realization that we cannot afford (at least not to the extent that we want to be sunk into debt to) to buy a home where we've been born and raised, the conversation seemed much more real with the simple understanding that either we start a business or move away.

What do we have to lose? 

We are debt-free, own hardly any assets and have an incredible knack for wanting to be entirely independent. We do not want children and alas, we have no mortgage to speak of. We have family that is supportive and complimentary and we have the funds to start a business the correct way- with proper licensing and everything. Basically, the only question left was, why the hell not? We didn't have a good answer.

To be smart about things I took back an old job that pays more, has better, more stable hours and that allows me the freedom to help with all things accounting/web/bookie-stuff. It also allows a lot more freedom to write- but that was just an extra bonus. We've budgeted ourselves out for a little over a year- that means he can make nothing for that amount of time and we don't have to worry, after that we'll need to figure it out. We decided to take a month to get all the proper documents and make sure to dot all our I's and cross all our T's. I've almost finished the website, the phone system, accounting system and CRM system are all in place. We are meeting with free mentor programs offered by our state and have called everyone about everything. It's spectacular how much there is to learn. 

We've obtained a truck (beautiful, inexpensive, practically perfect vehicle) and we even have a plan B that involves my husband getting licensed in another field in case this doesn't work. We have resigned to the fact that we're staying in the condo we've been in and have mini remodeled it enough that it's not too shabby. We acquired an eight-person dinning room set so we can have people over and save money on going out. The set is absolutely beautiful and after we purchased it for only $200 we found out it is actually an antique worth much, much more. 

Basically, with a little elbow grease, everything is falling into place. It's been so well put together that other people have commented on the rightness of it all. Which only concretes what I've come to learn. 

If it's meant to be, it'll happen.

Simple, sleek, overused and still so incredibly uplifting. 

Saturday, May 16, 2015

#SaturdayScenes #KillMatch

Kardia is a world where history has been firmly planted in our future, every luxury being disposed of and an archaic future is the best we can hope to see. Gladiator's once again roam the Earth as slaves to the throne and competition is deadly. 

Librarea is a nineteen year old Gladiatrix, a female Gladiator, claimed by House Aelius since she was only seven. She dreams of nothing more than to fight through to her twenty-first birthday when the law states that she will finally be released from her duties as a warrior. But just like her father before her, she may never make it. 

Heath, a vicious opponent who was narrowly beaten in their matching, has decided it isn't enough. He's been granted a Kill Match and the prize, if Librarea wins, is more than just her life, but the life of her sister as well.

*

All I could dream of were Liv's screams and by morning I was exhausted. I woke before both boys, their peaceful faces making it impossible for me to want to wake them. They deserved to rest a little longer before the horrors of reality woke them. I snuck to the door still in the clothes I had put on the day before, too pained to have changed out of them.  Carefully, I pulled the door open, cringing at the slight creak of the hinges before stealthily slipping out. Just as I was closing it tightly behind me, I could feel the presence of someone else.

"Good morning, Ferus."

The deep baritones of Marcellus threatened to echo down the hall. I turned to my right signaling for him to be quiet and to follow me. Remarkably he complied, a carefree shrug being his only response. I moved down the stairs, not bothering to acknowledge him. When we reached the first floor he lightly grabbed my shoulder spinning me around to face him.

"Would you like to tell me what that was all about before I drag you back to your room?" He questioned.

I roll my eyes at his ridiculous threats.

"Both Nile and Nero were still sleeping soundly. I have better manners than to wake them us, so I decided to get breakfast myself. I didn't expect you to still be mulling about my hall." I raise my eyebrows in suspicion, demanding an explanation. 

"Save those looks for the others, girl. They don't scare me." He grinned. "But because I'm in a good mood, I'll answer you. Nero didn't want you sneaking out. He also doesn't trust that friend of yours, so he asked me to stay and be sentry." He walked past me toward where the kitchen was located. "He's pretty intelligent. It only took a few hours and here you are. Well, as long as I'm here too we might as well get some food."

Marcellus walked a few steps then waited for me to join him. I shook my head in disgust but knew I had no choice. If I wanted help it would do me some good to learn when to pick my battles. Even though I didn't care for my companion, it was minute annoyance. I followed him through the house and into the kitchen. 

Sweat beaded relentlessly on my brown and I cursed myself for how weak I was becoming. I hated sustaining serious injuries, simply because of the time it took to retrain my muscles to obey. By the time we got there, I wasn't sure how I was going to be able to make it back. Thankfully, Marcellus was in an especially cheery mood and didn't force me to swallow my pride and ask him for help. He simply moved a sitting still against the wall and went about shuffling through the pantries. I quickly took a seat, all but flopping myself down from relief. 

My ribs felt as if they might push through skin if I moved another inch and my lungs threatened to quit being useful all together. I could barely head Marcellus' movements over my heavy panting. I closed my eyes focusing on deep breaths and the tiny cracks throughout my spine that followed several of them.

"Ah, Barret, you beast. I knew you'd have something good tucked away." Marcellus' giddy lilt interrupted my meditation and I opened my eyes.

He turned to walk back toward me, looking rather triumphant. 

"If you say one word to the cook, I will blame you entirely." He warned. "And we both know who he'll believe." I nodded knowing the truth of his threat.

Slowly he unwrapped the parcel in his hand, splitting his plunder in half and handing it to me. I moved the odd ball in my hand, inspecting it's seemingly gooey texture.

"What is it?" I implored.

He rolled his eyes dramatically, as if I were a bane on his soul. 

"They're pulmentum's. Barret only makes them for himself unless they are specifically requested by Lanista Aelius or the Etruscan. He doesn't want to waste his time making them for peasants. At least that's what he's told me. I'm not entirely sure what's in them, but I know they're unlike anything else I've ever tasted." He popped one in his mouth, closing his eyes and smiling as if he was in Heaven. 

I turned mine over once more, then smelled it. Sweet scents that reminded me of goats milk wafted to my nose, a spicy undertone mixing in with each breath. It looked to be meat with cheese and salt but I couldn't figure out what else. I shrugged and popped the bite into my mouth. Instantly my eyes dropped closed on their own accord. The spicy and sweet aroma staying true to the taste of the item with just a hint of saltiness. The meat tore easily, exposing the creamy center. I bit down and a light crunch was found bringing a new nutty flavor into the mix. I finished, licking at my teeth and trying to consume what was left of the flavor. I opened my eyes to a beaming Marcellus.

"So?" He tapped his fingers against his side impatiently. 

I moved my tongue around one last time, making sure it was entirely gone.

"That was... unexpected. It's like a jumble of all of the perfect foods rolled into a tiny, little ball. How does he get away with not making these all of the time?" I asked.

Marcellus laughed, throwing another one into his mouth.

"They apparently take a very long time to make. Weeks, I was told. I only know about them because I was training with Alexander when he requested a few. Since then I've been snooping around the kitchen as often as I dare, taking some from Barret's personal stash." He said.

I smiled at him, shoving the feelings of disdain I had for him becoming a Guard aside. I genuinely liked him and this just added to the many reasons why were had gotten along as children. I threw another one in my mouth and was sad to see only one left in my palm. Before I could ask if there were more, a very angry Nero came storming in, towing along an equally irritated Nile in his wake. I looked to my sentry and smiled again. 

"Looks like we've been caught."

 
 


Monday, May 4, 2015

Downsizing

Because tiny homes are...

I haven't been able to finish that sentence yet because I'm still debating it. 

Let's start from the beginning shall we?

I've been M.I.A. from G+ for a while because, well, I've been M.I.A. from anything that doesn't have to do with work or buying a house. They've been all consuming and I fear they're going to continue to be until the 27th of May. 

What's the 27th you ask? 

It's our closing date. I'm crossing my fingers it  happens before that, but that is our contracted date to be given over the keys and deed. 

YES! We found a home! 

And this time we're pretty sure there's nothing going to stop us from buying it. *Knock on wood*. The inspection has been done and the property was found to be beautiful. The well inspection has been done and there's some slight things but they can easily be fixed. All that's left is the appraisal. 

So, let's get to the fun stuff!


That's the view from the kitchen/dinning room. The house you see across, is pretty far away and that huge gap between? That's a fairly large river, jam packed with steel-head and river otters. 



Now this? This is the front of the home. You see how it's divided by a breezeway? Here's where the Tiny Home reference comes in.

It's actually two pods. In one pod it's a kitchen and dinning room. In the other pod it's a bedroom, office and bathroom. 

Is it odd? Yes. Do we love it? YES. 

The whole house is about 700sqft. 

That's all folks. 

Now, before you go buggy eyed, you have to know, it's on an acre. And that it is just my husband, myself and our two (smallish) dogs. We don't want children and we are not planning to expand in any other way. 

Although we have lived in small spaces before, we've lived in 1200+ sqft for the past three years. In those three years, I have accumulated a few things that I am very fond of. So fond of, in fact, that yesterday my husband and I had our first tiny home fight. He basically wants to dump everything and start over since we'll have to custom build every piece of furniture so that we get the most out of it (my husband builds custom furniture). My poor, little, hoarding heart couldn't handle it. 

But what about all the records and the record player? 
What about the beautiful antique roll top?
What am I going to do without my wrap around office desk?
HOW THE HELL DO I COPE WITH GETTING RID OF MY CUSTOM BOOKSHELF?

Yeah, it got serious. 

I do understand they're just things, really I do. But they're things that mark memories in my life. How will I remember the old man neighbor we met when we first moved in here? The one who had cancer and passed away? The one who before he died, knew I'd wanted an old record player and given me his along with his lifetime collection of records? What will remind me of the first project my husband and I ever built together if I don't see it holding the precious books of my childhood? What about the grand staircased bed we made for our old dog? The one with his name stitched into the sides?

It's silly to think that I'll forget, but I will. It will turn into, "oh, I remember that" instead of, "You see that piece there..." 

But they can't go. There isn't room and no amount of wishing is going to make that place grow. 

So why don't you find a different house, you say.

Have you ever walked into a place and the smell, the light, the soul of it, just made you feel like home?

That's why. 

This house is a piece of Washington that we remember from our childhoods. A place where there's more trees than people. Where it's a one lane road in or out and all you can hear is water. It's the heart of my homeland and I don't want to let it drown out with the rest of the progressing world. More than anything I want to keep this piece of the Pacific Northwest mine for as long as I possibly can. I would giveaway every memory to keep just this one.

It doesn't make it hurt any less but I do believe it'll be worth it. 

That's why I've decided to document the fights, the trials and the success of moving into this space. There's so many things we want to do with it that I haven't done since childhood and I know it's going to be a hell of a ride. So, naturally, I'm sharing it with you. 

Here's to growing up wanting the things you grew up hating. 

:)

Sunday, April 12, 2015

#SaturdayScenes #TheHumanCondition

It is 4:18 in the morning and this is the first time I've been home all day/night. It's been a long one. Still, I wanted to post a scene for today, so my apologies on the early morning/late posting.

The following scene is from a WIP that I am working on between Kill Match and Riding called The Human Condition. I'm not entirely sure what genre is would be placed in, but probably YA of some sort. There is no magic/fantasy in this one and it takes place here on Earth, in New York City.

Here is the prologue! Please let me know if you think it catches the attention of the reader to continue on to the beginning chapters.

:)

*

It was late, an hour that most wouldn’t dare to be out at. The time where the darkness is absolute, just moments before the light breaks through for dawn. I hurried my walk, careful to keep my precious cargo from the stinging droplets of rain that slapped at my face. A few eyes from the shadows followed my progress but I knew first hand that they didn’t matter. No one would believe a crack head or a whore, not that I was too concerned about anyone looking for me anyway. It was one of the things I loved about New York. I was easily forgettable.

The wet thunk of shoes against pavement moved me forward. I concentrated on the sound, blocking out all other thoughts. The buildings all leered down on me and I almost missed the one I’d come for. It stood tall and quiet, much like the rest, distinguished only by the golden plaque that hung above the doorway, “Academy of Excellence”. I hated the name with all it’s pompous attitude. It sounded like the private schools my parents could never afford, or for that matter, ones that I never would be able to either. If Dr. Day had not explained the academy’s true intent, I would’ve turned around right then, taking my chances alone.

I scoffed, glad that she had told me about this place. It would be the best for my daughter and I knew it. The pregnancy had been laughable, in a horrific sort of way. It was a one night stand with a man I couldn’t even remember. After my life had fallen apart and my mind had become shattered, I’d turned to alcohol to numb the pain. Knowing what a normal life felt like and having it ripped from me was a reality I couldn’t bare. Finally, when I’d found out I was pregnant I’d searched out help and found Dr. Day. She was the kindest person I’d ever met and when she told me about the program and the research for a cure, I agreed without question.

Only now, standing at the doorstep, did I begin to have second thoughts. A warm hand pulled me into the lobby, the heat from the room blasting my skin dry. I looked into friendly brown eyes and a plump face smiling at me.

“I am so glad you came!”
She hugged me lightly, careful not to jostle my arms. Her genuine excitement helped to ease my nerves. I was doing the right thing. I looked around the barren lobby, hoping to catch a glimpse into her new life.

“Can I… Can I see where she’ll be staying?”
Her smiled dropped, sadness overwhelming the lines.

“I’m sorry. I know this must be devastatingly hard for you. The facility is under complete lockdown. No one but the directors are allowed to leave. Not until the research is over. But I promise you she will be well cared for and safe.”

I gulped back the tears that were trying to form. I would not cry.

“And you promise she won’t be like me? That she won’t end up...crazy.”

I whispered the last part, hating to admit my faults even to someone who knew them well. She put her hand on my shoulder and held my stare with determination.

“I promise. I will care for her as if she were my own.”

I nodded my head, knowing that time was up. I unwrapped my coat from around the baby girl and her brilliant hazel eyes appeared.

“My sweet Maya girl.” I cooed, “Mommy loves you so much. I have to give you a chance to be good, healthy. Normal. I hope in your heart you know you’re the only one I’ve ever loved this much.”

I kissed her forehead, her little hands reaching for me, lightly pulling at escaped strands of hair. I curled my fingers around her as long as I could until fully handing her over to Dr. Day. The tears swelled, raging like a storm that I could no longer control. Before I decided to snatch her back, I ran out of the lobby door into the morning of the streets. I pumped my legs as hard and as far as I could. I had to get away from the decision I’d just made. I found myself chanting into the night, trying to ease my aching heart as best as I could, hoping I didn’t just make another mistake.

“She will be cured.”


Wednesday, April 8, 2015

April Resolutions

Because who in the hell ever keeps January's?

I'm sick, and not the kind of sick where you think you might be sick, I'm actually sick. My throat hates me for coughing so thoroughly and it feels like my body is being a traitor to my soul. OFF WITH HER HEAD! 

If only it were that easy.

The good news is, I'm at the tail end of this infestation of disease, and have thus had an epiphany of how much better my life can get. 

And I've been told I'm not an optimist. PFFT! (I blame the books I've been reading)

Here's where I make the vow of resolution to my hoard of ridiculous problems. Yes I know it's the middle of April. I'm not entirely delusional. But I didn't very well keep the ones I made in January, so I figure what could it hurt for a little brush up 1/3 of the way through the year.

So, I signed us up for dance classes. Because dancing makes everything better. 

I've been to the ballroom school before and I liked it a lot. I used to love to dance. But then life got busy and for some reason I ran out of time to continue it. Same problem happened with healthy home cooked meals. Somehow the two got pushed aside and I realize now that they were really important. Just ask the grudging weight that I can't seem to knock down no matter how far away from my work I park.

I've also come to realize that even though I've always wanted to dance/act/write for a living, I haven't done as much as I should in any of those categories to make it a reality. I watch videos or read books and I think the whole time, "Man, I would really love to do that". 

WHY THE HELL AM I NOT DOING IT?

I've become... ICK.... content.

And in some (i.e. most) cases, too stressed over things that wouldn't matter if I were doing what I loved in the first place. 

Today, well, not today specifically since I am hacking a lung and I'm sure they wouldn't allow me near any humans in public, I am taking a stance against excuses. Simply because I am not getting any younger and if I just sucked it up and started now, later will be so much easier. So much better. 

That's what happens when you do things your body and soul need. You feel better. 

:)

P.S.

In case you missed the whole point of the blog, the goals are:

1. Eat Better
2. Take dance classes
3. Do more of what I love

I want to hear all of your April resolutions people! I can't be the only one whose slackin'!

Oh, and here's the video that seriously is kicking my butt into dance gear!




Saturday, March 14, 2015

#SaturdayScenes #KillMatch

Today's scene takes place after a tense brunch with the King of Kardia (who is also known as the Etruscan-Which means Executioner). Libby, the main character, has been excused and she is retreating to the place she feels the most comforted. 

*WARNING! There is a little romance here!*

#KillMatch #SaturdayScenes #Dystopian #Fantasy

ENJOY!

**
I flew out into the streets, not stopping until I had finally reached the clock tower. Watches had become a thing of the past, very few making it through the wars of before, but Kardia had been blessed with one large clock that was held with pride on the face of one of only three towers the city held. Those that believed in a God came here to worship it. The place was almost always empty.

I crawled up the staircase, slowing my step on the crumbling stone, as I made my way up into the inner workings of the watch tower. I would come here simply to find solace in a city that had none. My heart eased as the familiar planks beneath me creaked and as soon as my back hit the outer wall I slid to the floor.

My eyes had only just closed a few moments when I heard the whine of the boards. My vision quickly shot a look in the direction of the sound, seeing the familiar form of Nile. His breath ran ragged as he plopped down beside me. A huge smile was plastered on his face and I raised my eyebrow in demand of an explanation. He puffed out a thick cloud of air, catching the falling pieces of his hair and the wind pushing them away from his eyes.

“What? I saw you running through the streets like a mad woman and figured you were too excited to be going wherever you were. Forgive me if I like to be included in the joy.”

I rolled my eyes at his ridiculousness.

“So, are you impressed?”

He took a moment to glance glance around at the empty room, pretending to really consider the question. Clock gears and dust being the only things to see. His smile widened as he looked back to me.

“Oh, yeah.”

He leaned his back into the wall, our shoulders touching as he relaxed into the room. Just as my eyes began to flutter closed, I felt Nile’s gaze shift to me and my lids pushed back open. He searched my face, his easy going smile completely gone, before he finally asked what I assumed to be the real reason he followed me here for.

“I heard through a few servants that Mantus made an appearance at Alexander’s today. Something about a celebratory brunch for his son’s first fight?”

I played with the hem of my shirt, needing something to distract me from the worried look on Nile’s face. He had given me it many times and the only time it bothered me was when I knew it was warranted. I shook my head in agreement.

“He doesn’t seem to care for me at all. Luckily, Nero needed me to appear completely competent. He was very protective of me around his father. Alexander must have warned him of the consequences for a Lanista to have a Gladiator who is frowned on by the Etruscan. He wouldn’t have given special treatment just because it just happened to be his father.” I said.

Nile’s eyes narrowed and his brows pinched.

“That’s a dangerous game, Libby. Trusting a prince to keep you safe from a heartless king.”

I stood up in disgust at the accusation in his tone.

“You say that as if I have a choice! I would die happy if I never had to see any of the Etruscan’s family again. I was chosen long ago, when I was still only just a child, Nile. I’m lucky enough to have avoided meeting them this long.”

The fight drained out of me realizing how different it would have been if Alexander hadn’t protected me all of those years. I was truly lucky.

Nile stood, wiping his palms on his pants. The vest he wore fluttered when he moved, exposing a bare chest, tanned with too many days in the hot sun. I appraised him wondering when we had both grown into adulthood. He caught my eyes and smiled, a dimple appearing in his left cheek and his eyes dancing with mischief once again.

“I know you’re right, I just need you to be careful. Who would I pester if you were locked away in the King’s fortress, hmm? Think of me, will you?”

I laughed at his teasing when he reached, grabbing both of my hands in his. I looked up into his face and saw the worry of a boy I had always known.

“In all seriousness, don’t let anything happen okay?”

I nodded, my words lost in the tension. Before I could fully wrap my mind around his words, Nile leaned in, brushing the lightest kiss against my lips. My heart fluttered for a moment, then thumped back into place. He had hurried away from me the moment his lips left mine, a shy gleam I had never seen, taking over.

“For luck.” He said. “We should probably be going, our fights begin at sundown.”

He took off, knowing I would follow. My fingers reached to my lips, brushing the ghost of a kiss left there. I had known one day we would have to find husbands and wives and my heart broke at the thought of losing my best friend to another. But what if we were to choose each other? The thought had crossed my mind several times over the last year, but each time it did, my stomach twisted in knots at the uncertainty. When I pictured Nile and I together, it had never been romantically.

I let out the breath I had been holding and rushed out of the tower. Things like kisses and love would have to wait, right now there was a ruthless Gladiator I had to fight and pray that I could make it out unscathed.

Saturday, March 7, 2015

#SaturdayScenes #KillMatch

Good Saturday Morning Everyone!

Today my #SaturdayScenes is from my upcoming WIP Kill Match. It is a dystopian fantasy that takes you back into the days of the Gladiators while still having a touch of the world as we know it. Here's a little back story before I share the scene:

65 years before Kill Match, during the ugliest and most destructive war the world had ever known, the world began knitting itself together. All formations of land shifted until finally they became one. The remaining humans were pulled together, different cultures, different religions, different way of life and the killing persisted. Seven leaders stepped up to claim their people and decided on a treaty, one that would keep the human race alive. The seven leaders helped to build colonies in seven plots of the new world, each given the freedom to run their people however they would choose.

And out of the sands, Kardia was born.

The leader of Kardia had two sons and a wife who were the only family who had survived the carnage. He held them in the absolute highest regard and he couldn't fathom losing them. When his youngest son found a book while exploring, life changed drastically. He became obsessed with the lives of the Gladiators and would recruit all other children to play with him, forcing them to fight. One day, he created spears and pushed his best friend into fighting him. He was being ruthless towards the other boy and out of sheer survival the child fatally stabbed the leader's son.

Torn with grief at the loss of her son, the leader's wife became ill and not long after his death, she too died. The leader of Kardia went into complete shock, agony, grief... He shut himself out from the people for days, reading the book that his son had been so fond of and his anger grew. To honor his son and be true to his wife he declared a new law... The Gladiator Law.


This scene takes place in current Kardia, with the main character Librarea who is a Gladiatrix (a female Gladiator).

Enjoy!

#Dystopian #Fantasy #Historical #Fiction

*
The training room is stark white, jagged stones are hidden under never ending paint. This is the only room in the entire home of my Lanista that is painted. He told me once that the distraction of color could only come after every other discipline was mastered. With nothing else to focus on as a child, I had to pay attention to the contours of my trainers face, concentrating on only the moves of my opponent. As I got older, I began to understand the brilliance in his insanity. I begin pulling out the dummies so that by the time he gets here, I will already be halfway through our session. We both like it better when we can leave shortly after he arrives. I hear the door creak and sigh quietly under my breath. He’s early, which is a rare feat and never good. I pick up my pace and begin throwing dummies into the center of the room, adamant to continue my pace and get out early enough to reach the Dust Bowl before dark. I swing back a flour sack mixed between beans and flour and hear a deep ‘Oof’ come from behind. My heel catches a little on the stones as I quickly spin around. Surely my Lanista would not be so stupid as to get hit while I’m preparing the arena.
           Long black hair spills over a bent head, shining with purple hues in the darkness. His dark black shirt and jeans are completely covered in flour, smeared around by his dusting hands. His olive brown skin is contrasting terribly with the powder and by the pout of his lips I can tell he’s unhappy. He sighs deeply, finally giving up on trying to wipe his clothes clean. He looks up at me, startling green eyes pierce through me angrily. He couldn’t have been much older than me, perhaps in his early twenties, so instead of bowing down, I fold my arms across me and snarl right back. This is my training time slot and my home. This stranger has no reason to be here making any guilt I had possibly felt dissipate. From the door, Alexander steps in, stopping in the frame. For a moment I think he’s going to let out a laugh but then his face turns serious.
“What happened here?”
            I open my mouth to respond, but am beat by the stranger.
“Well, it looks like your girl here doesn’t watch where she’s throwing things.”
            I growled at the condensation in his voice.
“Excuse me? You are in my training room, during my scheduled practice. I thought you were Lanista Aelius who at least knows better than to walk into the center of my arena while I am setting up!”
            Alexander steps farther into the room and before the man can react he silences us both.
“ENOUGH!” He strode to stand between us. “It looks as if this were truly an accident. On both parts. I say we call a truce and start over.” I nod my head in agreement, but the stranger was reluctant. “Good. Now, Librarea, this is Nero. I have been briefing him on you for sometime now. He is here to take over, to be your new Lanista.”
           My mouth dropped. I scrambled for words, unable to properly process the information I had just been given. My new Lanista? That couldn’t possibly be true. Had I honestly been traded? My face turned from confusion to anger.
“Now, Librarea. I know you think the worst, but patience must be your friend now. You have not been traded. This, for once, has nothing to do with you. I have decided to retire and Nero is the best trainee Lanista there is. He’s been under my guidance for a little under a year. As such he has requested to train the best, which we both know are my warriors. Because you are my greatest and oldest, he will start with you.”
           I looked the man over, not being discreet in the slightest. I sighed, finally nodding, knowing I had no choice in the matter.
“How much longer will you be in control?”
“Probably another year, maybe two.”
I sighed. “Fine. Let’s do this then.” I turned from the men, continuing to put together my station.
“Does she always have such an attitude?”
           My shoulders froze for a moment, clenched in the need to say something snotty. I wasn’t usually so disobedient to those higher in the ranks than I, but this guy had stretched every respectful nerve in my body in only moments. I took a deep breath then continued what I was doing, tuning out anything further that might be said.
Librarea!” Alexander shouted. I whipped my head back to him, unaware of how long he had been trying to get my attention.
“Stop. You will not be working with dummies today. We are going to have you train hand to hand with Nero. It is the best way for him to gauge your abilities and for you to gain respect of his knowledge.”
I groaned. The last thing I wanted to do was put my new trainer on the ground. Or worst, have him take me out and then live with his arrogance that had already made itself easily noticeable. My fists clenched and I picked up one of the bags already laid out in the center.
“Fine.”
           We cleared what I had drug out, the three of us only taking a few heartbeats to do it. I geared up for the fight, needing to wrap my hands and feet for protection. The rules were simple in training; no face or groin shots and once someone was down you stopped. It didn’t keep fighters from getting hurt, but it would minimize the chance if only by a miniscule amount. Good thing I didn’t fear this guy. He was taller than me by almost a foot, but not as tall as Alexander. He was slender like me, but tight coiled muscles wrapped around under his skin. He flexed while pumping his fists, loosening them up. He was deadly in his movements and anyone who didn’t know people would be afraid. I, however, could read the signs as if they were boldly written on his face. He was arrogant, and probably up until this point, rightfully so.

He was calm, but the tiny beads of sweat showed his anticipation. He wanted respect and he knew this was his chance to earn it. I hid a smile as I dipped my face back down to wrapping my feet. Any good fighter knew that you didn’t win a fight if you were fighting for any other reason than to win. I was sure if he had trained under Alexander at all he would know that, but it was obvious the idiot didn’t listen.

I finished wrapping my feet and stood slowly, making sure to stretch every muscle from the ground up. All his jumping around made me tired just looking at him and I wasn’t sure if he had never actually fought a Gladiatrix before or if he had simply lost all his training in his excitement. We met each other in the center, where a tight circle had been carved out of the paint. Alexander took one of each of our hands and held them on top of each other.

“Be clean. Fight well. Stay honorable.”

He had said those words hundreds of times to me and never had I felt the zing of anticipation I did this time. He released our hands and backed quickly to the far wall. We circled each other slowly, each of us gauging the others tactic. I watched his feet pace with mine, right over left. Right over left. It wasn’t until the third crossover that I saw his weak point. It was a tiny tweak in his left foot, likely an issue with his left hip or possibly his knee. I wasn’t a doctor to know the prognosis but I was a fighter and weaknesses were how you won. He caught the tiny movement of my mouth and narrowed his dark eyes before reaching out with a punch to my right shoulder. I turned just enough for him to catch the side of my arm and the burn of his strength tore through me. A tiny hiss left my lips before I refocused.

I wouldn’t want to get hit too many times by him. His throws were powerful and he would be able to take me down easily with only a few kicks or punches. I swiveled my hips so I began leading with my left foot and his tiny limp became present again. I quickly kicked out, going for the hip and hoping my gut feeling was correct. He saw the kick coming, but had anticipated the knee, bending down so my foot landed in the soft spot of his side. He swallowed, the reality finally kicking in that I was the highest ranked for a reason.